Michael Steven Wilson

well i nearly kicked me and gem today ,was going round a corner to fast in the van and lost it,didnt know what to do lucky i didnt hit the tree or any thing else that was about,i did break the tyre on the van so had to get that sorted stright away,i will get the money back off work i just to tell me boss tomorrow not looking forward to that! i hurt my neck and shoulder which i could of done with out just hope it dont take that long to sort its self out,gem is ok though,

also im going to the doctor on monday i found a lump in my boob so im going to get it checked out!

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       Sending A Big Heart Full of Love to Heaven!!!

                                 Thinking of You

michael,had a bad day at work and feeling sorry for my self again,gots so much on my mind with money the girls dad work i really dont know where to go any more,i miss you every single second of the day,ok i might not talking about you all the time but i miss you so much!

wish you could help me out michael,im really pissed off fed up,please help me out of you can with any thing!

love you so much ,always will till we meet again

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Thinkin of you Always..... You are Forever Loved and Missed Sweet Angel!! Big Hugs and Kisses are being sent your Way!!!  xoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoox

       Spread your wings and Fly.....You are Free!!

                                        Birds handcrafted from the wings of an angel,
                                        water running freely in the streams.
                                        Sunshine shimmers in radiance;
                                        How could so much beauty be an accident?
                                        Each smiling child's face,
                                        full of curiosity,
                                        seeks out wonders and grandeur.
                                        Like a child's eyes,
                                        our hearts are searching for some kind of hint,
                                        a hint of God.
                                        (If you look, Nature's arms will enfold you.)
                                        Stars are whispered into moonlight
                                        as a day well-lived is fading.
                                        The sun is sinking,
                                        the colors streaking brilliantly across the sky
                                        like ribbons.
                                        Do not embrace, rather
                                        be embraced, enfolded, wrapped in the arms
                                        of beauty, of His Creation.
                                        We all search for a framed, definite picture  

                                        of Heaven. 

                                        I can guarantee, your best bet
                                        is right before your very eyes.     

michael hope you had a great christmas day with all you angel,s,

not been bad here really apart from karens not been well she had a headache all day been sick not eat nothing hope she better by tomorrow its a shame she been bad,

girls have a great day i got all the prezzie right which is great means i dont have to take any thing back,well saying that i dont know if the size is right so i might have to just hope i dont lol!

i brought dad a new crash helmet he loves it glad about that lol,

christmas will never be the same without you we just got to make the most of it now!

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Thinking of you Michael and your family. Hugs Michelle xo

michael, just been looking at the stuff i got the girls well it aint alot,not like they normaly gets,i got nothing for kelly so i got to buy stuff for her over the next few days cant belive she got nothing,

it dont help not having the money either we never been this bad michael its making me so depressed,and im taking it out on every body,i know work aint great right now but i think thats to do with alot of how im feeling about every thing,i feel that i would be better off with you than being here,if you can help out in any way it would be great,just so pissed off woth every thing!

sorry to coming on here moaning at you michael,i cant keep telling dad how im feeling as he is really down and not feeling great either he dont need me moaning at him aswell!

well im really hoping you can help us in some well,

i love you so much michael and i always will

missing you always xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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just letting you know we got mikey back,but i dont think we will be able to keep him because of the other dogs they still dont like each other,i wish we could because i love him so much,

but he had fleas and they kept biteing bob and he got to have a op and they wont do it till there all heal up,so i want out to night and got all the stuff to sort him out so im hoping in has it cost me enough ,well im going bed now michael,make sure you stay in with the weather like it is!

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hi michael,

im going doctor on friday because of the pain im in with my neck,shoulders plus all the headaches im getting!

when iv gone to the hospital they said there is nothing they can do,because it dont look like there is any thing wrong now,but why am i getting all this pain? they said it will get better but it isnt going!

so im going to the doctors tell them whats going on and see what he says,i dont think its going to help at all but every body is keeping on at me to go so to keep them all happy im going!

i hope he can help because i would do any thing to get out of the pain im in right now!

also can you watch over dad for me,his back is really playing up the pain dad,s in right now is not good,he wasnt good at all today please send him some healing i could do with it right now!

im off to bed now as i had bad night last night kept waking up in pain,so im hoping to get a better night sleep!

i miss you so much michael and this time of year dont help buying stuff for xmas and not getting any thing for you,i know i tell you this every year but it dont get any better!love you michael!

nite nite son

love you see you

in the morning

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michael, help me out here please

victoira being picked on at school yes it been happening since she gone to this school but it get better for a few weeks then starts again,well she asked kelly to ask me to move her schools few weeks ago so i rang a school and been waiting for them to get back to me well they have we went and looked at it and it looks good,so we said to victoria she moving school, well she got right off on one saying she happy where she is dont want to move because she all friends with people ,she upset and i dont know what to do,me,dad,kelly,gem feel the best thing it to move but with how she going on and on saying she dont want to move! i NEED HELP! tell me what to do please

nite nite love you always xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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There comes a time for each for us
When nothing can be done
To ease the pain and sorrow
Of losing a beloved one
It's at these times we need
More than we ever could say
The quiet touch of understanding
The loving look or gaze
So rather than try to take away
The grieving feelings inside
Just know that I am thinking of you
And time will be your guide.

hi michael, back here again moaning its going from bad to worse i cant see any way out right now soon as the money goes in the bank it goes out on bills then it leaves us nothing,michael what im i going to do , we never been as bad as we are now i cant even tell dad how bad it is because i dont want to worry him any more than he is all ready!

im going now michael i just needed to get it out!

love you so much always

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michael,its getting close to xmas and im worrying about how im going to buy stuff we got no money at all,dont even think we getting enough to pay the bills ,and with the stress i think its not helping me my neck,shoulders and head is starting to play up big time i just want to cry with the pain right now,but like always i put a brave face on and nothing gets to me,well i dont know how long i can keep going on like this! i cant remember the last time we were this bad with money, i know its bad for every body right now,i just not coping great well in side any way falling apart like always,

oh well its just me aint it my life is meant to be shit!

love & miss you

michael always

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hi michael thought i just let you know whats happening this weekend,

its friday tomorrow and we will making our way up to sheffield for judo for the weekend as kelly fighting on saturday and her mates sunday so we staying up there ,kelly going though a hard tome woth her self about her judo dont know why because she doing great really proud of her ,hope you watch her saturday and cheer her on it would be great if you told her she will be ok and just do her best,i know she would love to here from you she dont never say alot about you as in missing you,but you know she does some times she gets upset talking about you but she very much like me dont like people seeing how hard it is but it side she falling apart,please help her out saturday by cheering her on!

me and dad having a bit of a hard time with money right now bills coming in and no money to pay them its really getting both of us down i try not to tell dad to much though as he dont worry,i know thats not the best thing but you know me i dont like others to worry when i can do it!

well im off to bed now as its late a bloody again haha,

nite nite son

love you see you

in the morning

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hello michael, not wrote to you for ages,loads been going on with us mainly work and judo that is mine and your dad life right now well thats what it seem like any way!

i felt really low last week to the point of whats the point being here life is shit for us all,i dont feel so bad at the moment,dad been really down aswell not sure whats up with him as he never talks to me about any thing!

i know me and dad is worried about money right now as we got bills coming out of our ears and not having the money to sort it,your dad never used to worry about money but he started to which is not good for him with his heart,so that makes me worry more about your dad because i dont know how it will affect him so we're going round and round and its not getting any better,what i cant understand why our life as to be so shit?

apart from having the 4 girls which we love very much life is shit! i just wish we could have a break of some sorts i got christmas coming and got no bloody money to sort it,i know i will i always do but it makes it so hard for us both,then comes the worring agian for your dad then im off again worring about dad,when will life give us a break!!!!!!!!!!

i cant belive how things seem to go from bad to worse all the time ,i just want us to stop worring over every thing the phone calls the letters its so shit!!!!!

any way that enough of me feeling sorry for myself you dont need to hear that crap!

i wish you were here michael and i know i say that to you so many times a week but i do and always will wish you were here,i know our life might still be shit if you were here but at least i would have my son with me!

love you always michael that will never stop!

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                                 A Hug From God

Sometimes I think I've got it all together-
I've figured out what life is all about.
It lasts a while and then it always happens-
A curve-ball come that I can't figure out.

I struggle to find my way through all the darkness-
the more I try the harder it seems to be.
Until I reach a point of fear and desperation-
It hurts so much I fall down on my knees.

A hug from God will ease a broken heart.
A hug from God will fill your life with love.
A hug from God who is your loving father-
is always there- just look to him and pray.
Oh, God please send your loving hug my way.

The room grows quiet as tears stream down my face-
the pain inside is all taken away.
A warmth surrounds my cold and shaking body-
As God's hand wipes the tears off of my face.

A hug from God will ease a broken heart.
A hug from God will fill your life with love.
A hug from God who is your loving father-
is always there- just look to him and pray.
Oh, God please send your loving hug my way.

Ask your angels to stay as near to you as they can; to help keep your vision clear and your presence simple, so in all the days to come there will be a radiance and Glory in your spirit.

michael im so sorry iv only got on here and its bed time,the last 2 days at work been so busy iv not had time for any thing else spose thats what happens now im manager loads of computer work to sort out now,i left home at half 8 this morning and left work at 8 tis evening! since i got home i got on and done the ironing as we going away tomorrow till monday so all the clothes needed to be done i was meant to be putting the stuff in the camper as well tonight and thats not got done,aint got a clue what time we will end up leaving tomorrow now was hoping for about 3pm but that aint going to happen at all,i dont mean not to get on here till late its just how its happen the last few days im really sorry michael!

any way its karen's birthday on friday she going to be 20,cant belive that reason we going away is she wanted to go away fro her birthday and take a friend which was fine only thing is now her friend have said she cant make it,which im not happy about at all leaving it till the day before we go to tell her,kelly friend aint coming either so she not happy either!

getting back to karen if you could visit her in her dreams michael and wish her happy birthday that would be great because i know she would love to hear from you just like we all would!

watch over all the girls for me please and dad,also watch over auntie donna's sister that still not great!

we do miss you so much michael dont ever think your going to be forgotten that will never happen as long as me,dad or any of the girls are alive!

love you always son

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