Michael Steven Wilson

Michael its your birthday tomorrow and I'm not even organised at all,iv not got you any flowers yet because to day we had company here so iv not got to the shops how bad is that,
i should of said just got to go and get Michael his flowers but i didn't i feel really bad!
what sort of mother does that make me a bad 1!
I'm really sorry Michael!

also i feel really bad because iv not been out to see you for ages,most of it because iv not been able to drive but i could of got dad to bring me out,theres always some thing to do at home though on a weekend house work washing,i dont get chance to do it in the week so my weekends is taken up by doing that sort of stuff then its back to work ,dont seem to have time for any thing else at all,we dont even visit any body any more,my life is work &house work that it how boring is that!

i do love you michael always will,please dont think i dont because that 1 thing that will never ever go!

love you always michael

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hello michael, thought i tell you what went on at hospital good nens and bad news really, its not another disk gone in my neck which is great,but they cant see why im getting as much pain im in,doctor said it could be a nerve trapped which could be giving the pain,but the doctor i seen is going to his boss which is the higher doctor see what he got to say they might do another op but they dont really want to,i dont care what happens i just want to be out of this pain,taking pain killers like i am cant be good for me either i think i would rather have a op to sort it out if i got a choiceany way im off to bed now as its gone 12 again lol,

nite nite son

love you see you

in the morning xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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Stars shining bright above you
Night breezes seem to whisper "I love you"
Birds singing in the sycamore tree
Dream a little dream of me...

Love, Michael

hi michael, really pissed off lately got loads going on with my health not sure if im going to have another op on me neck,in so much pain not seeing surgon till 14th august so thats still couple of weeks in pain,got no money which is not helping at all,got bills coming from every where girls needing new stuff for school,victoria needing stuff for camp just so pissed off with every thing ,needing to sort the house out aswell i feel like i need to move house some where close by so the girls dont need to move school's but with no money life is really hard dad is even worried about money and he never worrys about it,which is making me worry about dad with how dad's health is ,this is what i call we'll fucked!help us out if you can!

its victoria 13th birthday morro and she off to camp with army for 2weeks she want be back till your birthday i always have a shit time when it come round to your birthday and angel day xmas,life it so bloody shit want is the point in living any more apart from dad and the 4 girls!

i miss you so much,love you always till we meet again

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michael went back out A&E last nite with the pain am in was out there 3 hours for the doctor so say i will give you some dizapam which i got at home, but they wont do any thing as i got my M.R.I on friday dont know if i can put up with it till i see the doctor again,dont know how long its going to take to see doctor once i had my scan done i really do hope its not long,

any way about the weekend, we went down cornwall for judo on friday nite the rest of the weekend was just about having good time which i think every body did,rain little bit but most of the time it was dry,

im going now as the dizapam is just kicking in which is making me feel really tired!4

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hi michael, just letting you know that i been sat out A&E all night my neck and shoulder is hurting again so thought i would get it checked out, well it looks like i got a disc gone again in my neck just got to wait till the surgeon to contact me now and wait for a M.R.I  again to check me neck out, cant belive this is happeing to me again ,am hoping  that me and the dr got it wrong time will tell or should i say the M.R.I will lol,

oh well off to bed now hope i can get some sleep ,see my early night gone out the window,

nite nite son

love you see you

in the morning

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I thought I saw your face today,
in the sparkle of the morning sun.
And then I heard the angel say,
"Their work on earth is done."

I thought I heard your voice today,
then laugh your hearty laugh.
And then I heard the angel say,
"There's peace dear one at last."

I thought I felt your touch today,
in the breeze that rustled by.
And then I heard the angel say,
"The spirit never dies."

I thought I saw my broken heart,
in the crescent of the moon.
And then I heard the angel say,
"The Lord is coming soon."

I thought that you had left me,
for the stars so far above.
And then I heard the angel say,
"They left you with their love."

I thought that I would miss you so,
and never find my way.
And then I heard the angel say,
"They're with you every day."
"The sun, the wind, the moon, the stars,
will forever be around,
reminding you of the love you shared,
and the peace they've finally found.

michael,

can you watch and help karen tomorrow she going for a interview for a job she really loking forward to it as well, just hope she says all the right things,i would love her to get this job ,the job is a travel buddy which is helping people to learn going on buses which is great at she know all the bus route's cant belive how good she is so please help her tomorrow,i will let you know how she goes!

nite nite son

love you see you

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A Good night Hug

Is coming your way

with warm wishes

to close your day!

These thought waves are

sealed with a gentle kiss,

wishes of sweet dreams to

renew your spirit with bliss

Before the morning light

comes peeking through

wishes of abundant love

to fill your heart so true..

XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX'S

this is pissing me off not doing any thing michael,when others cant be assed to do things thats when i want to get up and do stuff,but if i do im in the wrong i cant bloody win can i ? ur dad came home from work knacked,asked him to go chip shop for tea but he cant be assed well that great when i cant do sod all about it, so i asked gem she doing it and she going to go shopping for me,im so pissed off!!!!!!

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hi michael, just wanted to let you know im home from hospital now after having my hysterectomy, only been in there for 2days which is great, cant do any thing now for 6 weeks,well can do little bits no lifting for 6weeks,i will go back work before then as i will do stuff in the office,

glad all my op is all over with now,this 1 was planed but the 1 on my neck wasnt lol, im still getting over my neck op and then having this 1 my body has to get over 2 big ops now lo, will have to take my time in doing stuff though all i will be in trouble,

girls going to be home soon,they dont know im home yet,

take care michael,

love you for ever and always

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hi michael, just got home from holiday really glad to be home, it was nice sitting around doing nothing for 2weeks and the weather was great,just missed home loads and the dogs and being able to talk to you every day,it cost so much to go on the internet over there plus it was so dear aswell couldnt belive how much things was over there from when we went spain 2years ago!

i got hospital this thursday about how im getting on with my neck,im still in some pain but loads better than i was its been 6 weeks since my op now,going in hospital next wednesday again tho not sure how long im going to be in for tho .

missed you so much michael while i been away so glad i can talk to you every day again!

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hi michael,nearly a week gone here its been really hot,not much to do on a nite here tho which makes it a bit boring really,miss coming on here every day talking to you but it cost so much ,spain is really dear now with every thing you want to buy this is why im not coming on here to much,im thinking about you all the time tho,

hope your doing ok without me?

watc over the dogs for me i hear there not being good for jenny and they pissed a few people off lol,

speak to you soon michael,

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hi michael, not long got back from judo with kelly, great day kelly had 4 fights and won them all, she done really well mum & dad is really proud of her hope you were there watching her,

we going bed in abit try & get some sleep as we got to be at the airport for 4am :(

watch over us please i will try & find internet over there just dont know if there is any where were going!

we will all miss you not being there as we do every day!

nite nite son

love you see you

in the morning

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hi michael, just want you to know we going to spain on monday for 2weeks, not sure if there is internet where were going i do hope so but please dont think i have for gotten you if i cant get to talk to you on here,

dad really needs a break he is so knacked right now that 2weeks doing nothing should help him big time but can you watch over him for me michael please you know dad means so much to me,

also on sunday we got a judo comp for kelly down devon we will be leaving here about 6 in the morning and not got a clue what time we will be getting home, hope its not to late as we got to be up 2am monday morning as we need to be at airport for 4am fly out at 6am,so we going to be well tired lol,talk to you morro now babe as its so late again lol

nite nite son

love you see you

in the morning

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Michael

Today brings tears and memories

of sorrow and regret

a day filled with such sadness

it's not easy to forget

For everyone whose lives you touched

has always loved you so

and it was so very hard to accept

that you'd ever have to go

and so this message is for you

especially to say

this world lost someone wonderful

the day you went away.

Heya Michael,

just wanted to let you know you are in my thoughts today. I scarcely know where the past 4 years have gone. But there is not a day goes by where I don't look at your photos. I have one on the wall in the consevatory and another on the side in my bedroom. Stay close to Mum and Dad, Gem, Karen, Kelly and Victoria today. They all miss you so much. I lit a candle for you this morning did you see... Burnt my finger in the process lol. Your family came to see us yesterday. The kids all went over the park. How I wish you could have gone too and had a kick around with Our Jack. But I know you would have been watching them.

Godbless sweetie, Hope you and your angel friends are watchin over all your loved ones

Love always Kim xxx

well what can i say michael that i'v not said over the four years you been gone,

its now half 9 in the morning and this time four years ago i being told you were having a op and might not pull though!

i live that momet every single day and will do the rest of my life,and at half 2 this afternoon was when we lost you,that momet will never go any for any body that was in your room at that time,and most of the family was there.

four years is a long time but it still seem like yesterday,but when i think about what gone on over the years thats when i no its been so long since you been gone!

also the girls have grown up so much as well i cant belive how much they have changed in four years!

they miss you so much dont say to me or dad, as they dont want to hurt us any more than we our all ready,but they our hurting so much too!

i would never say the pain i felt when we lost you will ever go away,plus i dont belive over time it gets better,i belive you learn to cope with it more.

me and your dad will never get over the pain we fill ,the hole in our hearts will never heal!

as you know dad wont come on here and talk to you he dont find he can and thats fine by me and you,as you can understand that!

we will both miss you for the rest of our lifes!

love you michael always and for ever till we meet again

mum and dad

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hi michael!

mums in hospital and has to stay in over night!

because she needs to have an operation tomorrow because her vertebrake in her neck is pushing down on her nerve and its causing her so much pain!

she told me to make sure you knew and that you knew how much she loves and misses you!

look over her tonight and tomorrow please Michael, just to make sure shes alright!

i love and miss you millions babes .

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michael, just letting you know that i been dr,s this morning told her what been going on she done some test and stuff she wasnt happy with them so she phone the hospital spoke to dr there and he told her that he wants to admit me to do some test think they on about a M.R.I like you had if i dont get home to night i will get 1 of the girls to let you know what going on ok!

will miss you like always watch over me tho ok not sure weather i going to like it in there lol,

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hi michael ,just wanted you to know i miss you so much always will there not a day that goes by that i dont miss you,i will love you till i die which means i will be back with you ,we should of never been a part like we have been,life is wrong taking the good 1,s ,i know you were in loads of pain but we could of got that sorted well i hope we could of, but i also know you were in pain for 5 years which wasnt fair on you,

love you michael always will

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hi michael,

its easter this weekend so im just letting you know we going away for a long weekend in the camper,me and dad needs a break we are both so knacked ,so we wont be doing a lot while we are away sit and do nothing lol sound good to me ,i will still be able to talk to you as kelly got a phone that goes on the internet just need to learn how to use her phone lol,

hope the weather picks up its been nice now its raining again dont need that going away!

love you always michael

till we meet again

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just letting you know michael we are off to sheffield tomorrow for kelly to do judo,

its a comp and its fighting for your school she not feeling great hope she ok with her fighting morro though she is looking forward to going hope she does well,theres some other lads going up from the club hope they do well to,

we have to get up at 5am lol,its half 11 now ,so not much sleep tonight lol,

will let you know tomorrow how she gets on,

nite nite son

love you see you

in the morning

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hi michael, watch over your dad please he having a bad time,

he bottling things up and not talking to me yet again, he always like that with me he hates it if i dont talk about things.

plus at work we losing work abit at a time so he not sure if he will be out of job so he worried about that,we reallt short of money right now so thats some thing else he worrying about,

i just tried to talk to him but he just said he dont want to talk about it,

please help him,

love you always

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